Everybody leaves

I wanted to write this for the longest time. For now I’ll maintain a diary.

It’s 3:55AM, I woke up with a heavy heart.

5:36AM: I keep running the scenario from last night in my head. What exactly did they talk about?

6:59AM: I miss your voice.

8:15AM: I want to lie down with my eyes closed all day. I feel so alone, but I better get used to this. I think I’m destined to be alone, since everyone finds a reason to move away from me, mentally and physically.

11:36AM: I want to tell myself that I shouldn’t let anyone else fool me into thinking happiness is attainable. It’s funny how I was dreaming of so much, but I’m now back to where I’ve always been. This feeling I’m having right now really is my home and I shouldn’t try leaving again. As I say this, I can feel my heart still wanting to hope. I really wish that little ray of hope goes away.